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                                From Beyond

By Howard Phillips Lovecraft in 1920, and first published in "The Fantasy
Fan" June 1934.

Horrible beyond conception was the change which had taken place in my best
friend, Crawford Tillinghast. I had not seen him since that day, two months
and a half before, when he told me toward what goal his physical and
meta-physical researches were leading; when he had answered my awed and
almost frightened remonstrance's by driving me from his laboratory and his
house in a burst of fanatical rage, I had known that he now remained mostly
shut in the attic laboratory with that accursed electrical machine, eating
little and excluding even the servants, but I had not thought that a brief
period of ten weeks could so alter and disfigure any human creature. It is
not pleasant to see a stout man sud-denly grown thin, and it is even worse
when the baggy skin becomes yellowed or grayed, the eyes sunken, circled,
and uncannily glowing, the forehead veined and corrugated, and the hands
tremulous and twitching. And if added to this there be a repellent
unkemptness, a wild disorder of dress, a bushiness of dark hair white at
the roots, and an unchecked growth of white beard on a face once
clean-shaven, the cu-mulative effect is quite shocking. But such was the
aspect of Crawford Tilllinghast on the night his half coherent message
brought me to his door after my weeks of exile; such was the specter that
trembled as it admitted me, candle in hand, and glanced furtively over its
shoulder as if fearful of unseen things in the ancient, lonely house set
back from Benevolent street.

That Crawford Tilinghast should ever have studied science and philosophy
was a mistake. These things should be left to the frigid and impersonal
investigator for they offer two equally tragic alternatives to the man of
feeling and action; despair, if he fail in his quest, and terrors
unutterable and unimaginable if he succeed. Tillinghast had once been the
prey of failure, solitary and melancholy; but now I knew, with nauseating
fears of my own, that he was the prey of success. I had indeed warned him
ten weeks before, when he burst forth with his tale of what he felt himself
about to discover. He had been flushed and excited then, talking in a high
and unnatural, though always pedantic, voice.

"What do we know," he had said, "of the world and the universe about us?
Our means of receiving impressions are absurdly few, and our notions of
surrounding objects infinitely narrow. We see things only as we are
constructed to see them, and can gain no idea of their absolute nature.
With five feeble senses we pretend to comprehend the boundlessly complex
cosmos, yet other beings with wider, stronger, or different range of senses
might not only see very dif-ferently the things we see, but might see and
study whole worlds of matter, energy, and life which lie close at hand yet
can never be detected with the senses we have. I have always believed that
such strange, inaccessible worlds exist at our very elbows, and now I
believe I have found a way to break dawn the barriers. I am not joking.
Within twenty-four hours that machine near the table will generate waves
acting on unrecognized sense organs that exist in us as atrophied or
rudimentary vestiges. Those waves will open up to us many vistas unknown to
man and several unknown to anything we consider organic life. We shall see
that at which dogs howl in the dark, and that at which cats prick up their
ears after midnight. We shall see these things, and other things which no
breathing creature has yet seen. We shall overleap time, space, and
dimensions, and without bodily motion peer to the bottom of creation."

When Tilliinghaut said these things I remonstrated, for I knew him well
enough to be frightened rather than amused; but he was a fanatic, and drove
me from the house. Now he was no less a fanatic, but his desire to speak
had conquered his resentment, and he had written me imperatively in a hand
I could scarcely recognize. As I entered the abode of the friend so
suddenly metamorphosed to a shivering gargoyle, I became infected with the
terror which seemed stalking in all the shadows. The words and beliefs
expressed ten weeks before seemed bodied forth in the darkness beyond the
small circle of candle light, and I sickened at the hollow, altered voice
of my host. I wished the servants were about, and did not like it when he
said they had all left three days previously. It seemed strange that old
Gregory, at least, should desert his master without telling as tried a
friend as I. It was he who had given me all the information I had of
Tillinghast after I was repulsed in rage.

Yet I soon subordinated all my fears to my growing curiosity and
fascination. Just what Crawford Tillinghast now wished of me I could only
guess, but that he had some stupendous secret or discovery to impart, I
could not doubt. Before I had protested at his unnatural pryings into the
unthinkable; now that he had evidently succeeded to some degree I almost
shared his spirit, terrible though the cost of victory appeared. Up through
the dark emptiness of the house I followed the bobbing candle in the hand
of this shaking parody on man. The electricity seemed to be turned off, and
when I asked my guide he said it was for a definite reason.

"It would he too much . . . I would not dare," he contin-ued to mutter. I
especially noted his new habit of muttering, for it was not like him to
talk to himself. We entered the laboratory in the attic, and I observed
that detestable elec-trical machine, glowing with a sickly, sinister violet
luminos-ity. It was connected with a powerful chemical battery, but seemed
to be receiving no current; for I recalled that in experimental stage it
had sputtered and purred when in action. In reply to my question
Tillinghast mumbled that this permanent glow was not electrical in any
sense that I could understand.

He now seated me near the machine, so that it was on my right, and turned a
switch somewhere below the crowning cluster of glass bulbs. The usual
sputtering began, turned to a whine, and terminated in a drone so soft as
to suggest a return to silence. Meanwhile the luminosity increased, waned
again, then assumed a pale, ontre colour or blend of colours which I could
neither place nor describe. Tillinghast had been watching me, and noted my
puzzled expression.

"Do you know what that is?" he whispered, "that is ultra-violet." He
chuckled oddly at my surprise. "You thought ultra-violet was invisible, and
so it is -- but you can see that and many other invisible things now."

"Listen to me! The waves from that thing are waking a thousand sleeping
senses in us; senses which we inherit from aeons of evolution from the
state of detached electrons to the state of organic humanity. I have seen
the truth, and I intend to show it to you. Do you wonder how it will seem?
I will tell you." Here Trninghast seated himself directly opposite me,
blowing out his candle and staring hideously into my eyes. "Your existing
sense-organs -- ears first, I think -- will pick up many of the
impressions, for they are closely connected with the dormant organs. Then
there will be others. You have heard of the pineal gland? I laugh at the
shallow endocrinologist, fellow - dupe and fellow - parvenu of the
Freudian. That gland is the great sense organ of organs -- I have found
out. It is like sight in the end, and transmits visual pictures to the
brain. If you are normal, that is the way you ought to get most of it . . .
I mean get most of the evidence from beyond."

I looked about the immense attic room with the sloping south wall, dimly
lit by rays which the every day eye cannot see. The far corners were all
shadows and the whole place took on a hazy unreality which obscured its
nature and in-vited the imagination to symbolism and phantasm. During the
interval that Tillinghast was long silent I fancied myself in some vast
incredible temple of long-dead gods; some vague edifice of innumerable
black stone columns reaching up from a floor of damp slabs to a cloudy
height beyond the range of my vision. The picture was very vivid for a
while, but gradually gave way to a more horrible conception; that of utter,
absolute solitude in infinite, sightless, soundless space. There seemed to
a void, and nothing more, and I felt a childish fear which prompted me to
draw from my hip pocket the revolver I carried after dark since the night I
was held up in East Providence. Then from the farthermost regions of
remoteness, the sound softly glided into existence. It was infinitely
faint, subtly vibrant, and unmistakably musi-cal, but held a quality of
surpassing wildness which made its impact feel like a delicate torture of
my whole body. I felt sensations like those one feels when accidentally
scratching ground glass. Simultaneously there developed something like a
cold draught, which apparently swept past me from the direction of the
distant sound. As I waited breathlessly I perceived that both sound and
wind were increasing; the ef-fect being to give me an odd notion of myself
as tied to a pair of rails in the path of a gigantic approaching
locomotive. I began to speak to Tillinghast, and as I did so all the
unusual impressions abruptly vanished. I saw only the man, the glowing
machines, and the dim apartment. Tillinghast was grinning repulsively at
the revolver which I had almost unconsciously drawn, but from his
expression I was sure he had seen and heard as much as I, if not a great
deal more. I whispered what I had experienced and he bade me to re-main as
quiet and receptive as possible.

"Don't move," he caution...
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